Just a Short Note....

I need more fuel.....

2006-03-10T00:25:00.000+05:30

Seriously I need more energy fuel. I was wondering about the fuel which can drive
humans :). Machines need oil or electrical power to charge them. If we want to recharge humans, than how could we.. Is their any fuel made ever, which can fill humans with energy? Is there anything which can fill me with enough enery that I
don't have to opt for 11-12hr sleep..
I see people who sleep around 6hr per day. And keep working for
the rest to their day. And they don't feel any fatigue. Do they eat the same
food ? or they are secretly eating some special diet... Hmmmm...
People like me sleep for 9-10hr in the night. We hardly manage to wake
up around 12. In an hour we are ready for our lunch. Then after lunch you need
to rest for some time. Again 2 more hours are gone. Oh my goodness, what the
hell am I doing? I am just becoming Kumbhkarana of "Ramayana". God please help
me...
But, at times, when it is exam time or other important work
then I do get up little early and work round the clock. How does that happen?
Why can't I do it everyday? We don't have any motivation or any "Lakshay" as
priety zinta says in Lakshay movie :).
Wait a second is it really motivation? Is it the motivation that one person
(myself) is lacking. We can do the job but we don't
want to. We are just too lazy to take up the challenge.
At times, when crunch time comes, we can do everything. But that is
just short time power boost. Just Like in NFS, we have NITRO boost which will
speed up the car for a short period of time. Some people can keep their energy
level at top speed all the time. They really have motivation in their life.
Every morning they wake up with lots of work to be done before they again go
to sleep. And we wake with lots of nothing to be done. There are countless
things which we would love to do. But sleep gets higher priority over
everything. What is it that we are getting from these sleepy day and night -
Rest, relaxation, enjoyment and fantasy dreams?
Is this really what we want? This will lead us to NOWHERE. If we don't want to study,
than ok, don't study. Go and play. Read some crap. Do anything except resting
on our bed. Nothing gets added to our life, character while sleep. Yeah,
Numbers of hours wasted sleeping does increase.
I will be a graduate in few days. I really want to change this habit.
Right from the beginning of this semester, I have been trying. But all failed.
It seems I wasn't putting effort needed for this demeanor. I need more
intensity. I need more fuel..
And one fine day, it will be a very fine day...

Do I Believe In GOD?

2006-02-27T02:33:00.000+05:30

I have seen daily ritual of adoring "ALMIGHTY GOD" in many families. Wake up early morning and sing hymns for
your sacred deity.
Go to temples and offer your prayers. Urge for a sorry towards your mistakes and ask to enlighten your soul. In my childhood, I used to follow these blindly. My parents asked me to and so, I followed without any hesitation. I had a few doubts but never gave much thought to it. Since Elderly people are doing it so it should be for our good sake. That's how, many children grow religiously in such religious societies.
Now I am mature enough to put all my old memories together and think why I was asked to do those things. Things like believing in GOD being the most powerful entity in this whole universe who controls everything. HE keeps track of everything I say and do. Basically I should not do any wrong to anyone otherwise you (oopss [ I ] ) will be punished, accordingly. If I get in any trouble, then keep fighting "HE" will get me out of this. Say if you fall in any trouble, then it is a test for my patience and skills.
So don't get scared, just have the faith, keep fighting with the spirit and everything will be fine in the end. There is another one good thing, which i heard a lot and goes like "GOD is everywhere in every living being as well as non-living things. It sees everything and it guides me at every moment of my life. Just Believe in HIM. And HE will help me in realising and achieving my goals.
Do I see a pattern coming out of it. hmmm.. yeah, I surely do. I don't know If HE actually exists or not, since I have never seen HIM. I was told just that "HE exists". HE may be for real or a conceptual entity. But he exists for the good of everyone. Our parents can't be with us all the time. That's why they told us about the GOD. HE watches us all the time. Stops us doing anything evil and helps us in trouble. Now question comes how does HE watch everyone all the time and help us. It's because HE is inside us. HE is part of our soul.

What is this soul now? Some people call me GHOST also :). I would say living things are divided into two parts- their body and soul. It's like when someone dies, his body is still lying there but his soul or BHOOT has left the body. That's one reason i have for believing in living beings having souls. So believing in GOD means believing in my soul(Quite a Logically proved fact, isnt it ..). And I end up believing in myself. Having a belief that there is a great power hidden inside me to guide and help me through the difficult moments of my life is great. I love this belief.
In Hindu religion or Buddhist religion, they have different excercises to wake up your inner powers. They make you realise your real powers inside you. This might be one of the reasons why YOGA is so famous in west. Or we put in another way say, they are bored with their fast life and need some time and excercise to relax their minds. In west they don't have this concept of hidden inner power. YOGA helps people in control your mind and its modifications.
I believe in GOD. More I understand myself , believe in myself more I become closer to GOD.

if(glLight(your_inner_souls) == 0)
{
May GOD Enlighten Your Inner souls...
}
else
{
Enjoy !! :)
}

.... Now that was something Techie ;))

Ghoont Ghoont se ....

2006-02-26T00:45:00.000+05:30

Someone said "BOOND BOOND SE GHADA BHARTA HAI". And I say "GhOoNT GhOoNT SE BOTAL KHAALI HOTI HAI".
This is a bitter truth of life. We start with a sip and later it becomes a peck or two and then it becomes a daily habit. People say chill it yaar. It is just a sip. How does it matter? Yaar, take just one puff, we ask for no more. I still remember, it all started with one or two friends of mine. Now there is a full gang of suttbazz people :). And interesting thing is that they can go to any heights to prove their points. They would say that no alcohlic beverage can affect me. I can drink on and on. And still I'll be in my all senses. Or they will tell that in a purticular university people have researched and came to this conclusion that these drinks are good for health. If you smoke once or twice a day it really helps you living a healthy life :).
For that matter I would say take any bad thing or person you can always find some good in it. That depends on your height of optimism.
Being optimist is good. But sometimes too much sugar can be injurious to health. You are not drinking alcohol, it is just reverse. Basically, Alcohol is drinking you. The day you realise this might be too late to realise. And smoke I think will smoke the flesh off your body. One day your life will become like a "KHAALI BOTAL". So friends take care ...

A journey to SSA Globals...

2006-02-24T22:41:00.000+05:30

Today I was suppposed to go at SSA Global's office around 1:30 pm for a written exam. Considering that 1:30 pm isn't that early, I slept around 4 am last night. No, actually I went to bed around 4 but couldn't sleep till 5:30 for reasons unstatable :). Around 12:15 pm today, khurana woke me up saying that we are suppose to be there 1 hour before the exam and that makes it 12:30. This was one of the very few occasions when I had to go out without taking a Bath :(.

Finally we were there without much of the hurdles. It's in Venenburg IT Park. Motorola, Deloite, Connexant and many more IT companies have their offices in there. It's a pretty big place. We checked in at the security and found our way to the SSA Global. And guess what, we were not alone. There were people from ICFAI Tech and CBIT for the written exam and interviews. But this was actually expected :). We told the security guard there to direct us to someone who can guide us from there. He asked us to wait with the other people. Now we were really getting a feel of offcampus placement. We were sitting and waiting for someone to come and tell what to do. Finally there came this guy saying that we should wait for other people and so, the exam would start at 2:00. We agreed and thus had to wait for one long hour :(. What else could we say? We came at 12:30, I didnt take shower, I neither had breakfast nor lunch :(. We ,specially I, were really hungry. Hunger is one thing that really kills me. We went to look over their cafeteria. It was full with all sorts of people and no place to sit. They had all varieties of food. They had 4 messes serving different menus. Besides that, you can have fruit salad, vegetable salad, sandwitches and juice. And that's wat i had. I wanted to eat something light as otherwise I would definitely sleep in the exam like i almost did in convergys :). And then we were back in SSA where other people had also arrived.

After some time we were moved to an exam hall. We were given pcs and we had to solve some aptitude and technical questions. One guy was giving us our hall tickets and everybody got theirs except me :( because they didnt have any by my name. I was like WHAT?? That person said u r not in the list. We are sorry. I thought I had been waiting here for 2 hrs and now I cant go back without taking the exam. I told him my registration id. Then he called someone to check it up. We found out that there were some problems with other hall tickets too. So basically I wasn't alone :). These confused people cant even organise a simple event. What a mess? So finally after 15 mins we got over to start with our test. It was an easy one. Simple aptitude questions and no high level technical questions too. After some time our exam got over. Our invigilator came to me with great hopes and asked "So how was the exam ?". And I, like tiger ready to pounce on its prey, told him the reality about that question paper :D. How much it sucked. I dint use those words but the meaning was very much similar. I used some good technical lingos, to explain him how a good paper should be designed. Basically I was done with this paper and thought of njoying some moments. I don't know if he really understood nething and neither do i care :).

Finally he said that he didn't set this question paper ;)). He was just organizing these tests. He took a great sigh of relief as if he got himself freed from a big accusation :). Then he started asking about IIIT. Our conversion was over and we were ready to leave. Then we thought of taking a look inside SSA global's office. It was a big hall and people were sitting in their cubicles, some coding, some googling stuff and some chatting on yahoo :).

Then we were out of that company and rode back to our way back home. And one more fact of the day, after a long time I drove a bike and that too Joon's Bullet :). That's one heavy bike that hardly anyone in our groups tries to drive. Infact, they CAN'T really drive. But for me, Rajasthani JAT, it wasn't that tough. Afterall, what am I going over to gym for in all those past 2 years. Kudos to me :).

religion and society...

2006-02-21T15:17:00.000+05:30

Today my imagination goes a long way back in the history.
When people used to live in small groups or say towns, they had a king who would decide their fates. King, supposedly a good and great person, made rules and regulations for everyone in that society. He was the judge in all the conflicts. Happiness in the whole town was decided by the king;s happiness. He used to fight with neighboring towns to protect the rights of his people or to save his crown.

Okay, now lets cook up a story on how a new religion was born out of these people. Let's consider these three possibilities:

1) GoD came down to the earth and showed them the path of light. And he provided great vedas and scriptures to make their dreams of true enlightenment come
true.

2) There was a good and brave king who cared for his people. He decided what was good; what was bad; what was acceptable; and what was not acceptable. He did some real good work for his people to make their life easier. People respected him for his deeds and started to adore his teachings. They tried to follow every word he said. And thus, he became a holy person. His principles became the rules of a new religion.

3) There was a great saint, who helped people in understanding their lives. He created a GOD (imaginary) for people. A GOD, who was taken for an ideal person whose actions everyone followed. They might have failed but then, those followings were worth a try.

So what's the point of writing this? The point is that Religion was created for the good of society and for its prosperity. It was to stop people from doing anything bad. To make people respect their cultural heritage. It never said anything about any other religion. It never said anything about hating other people just because they have some different set of values. How does it affect our lives? Every religion teaches people to build positive environment, to love other people and help them whenever needed. But it never said anything about killing anyone on the grounds of religion.

At times, we see that people don't want to drink water from one common place. Some people even don't touch certain places because they are being contaminated by the people of other religions. WHO THE HELL GIVES THEM THE RIGHT TO DECIDE THIS? ARE YOU A SCIENTIST WHO HAS TAKEN SAMPLES FROM THAT SO-CALLED 'CONTAMINATED' PLACE and found it infected with some serious virus. If not, then get rid of these false teachings of religious gurus. You have got your brains. If you believe in GOD, then you could assume GOD to have given you these brains. And I believe it has some purpose, I mean the brains. Purpose would be to help you thinking sensibly and logically, not to follow some biased ideologies of some particular person.

What I don't understand is how stupid some people can be in believing the mean politicians, who always bring forward certain religious issues in public? The sole aim behind raising such issues is to win them name, fame and elections. But results of that generally come out to be very severe for the society.

I will leave discussion till next post.

Evolution of human race...

2006-02-17T00:27:00.000+05:30

I just wonder sometime how this human race would have born ?. Scientists have been brainstorming on this phenomenon. They seem to have some consensus on the theory which says that there were some apes kinda animals who are the ancestors of modern human race. They have given some interesting name to the early generation. They call them homo sapiens, homo erectus and homo BLAH-3 (I guess so).

There seems to be two groups of scientists supporting their arguments. One of them says that modern humans arose from a single "cradle of civilization" in Africa. Another group says that modern humans arose simultaneously everywhere, and as population met, advantageous gene progressed.

Recent discoveries fall on side of people who support latter argument. Different studies, published in many journals, examine two types of evidences: DNA and anatomical. These studies show that modern human couldn't have evolved from a single source of Africa. That was the technical and scientific part of studies.

Now let’s just put aside these scientific studies for a while and then think. There are three things that come to mind.

-> As Religious Books say first, man was sent by GOD on this world. And later HE provided a woman to accompany this first man and helped him to carry his legacy forward ;). If no book/religion says like this, then let’s assume this is my theory :). This way more humans evolved and population prospered. Soon they had whole town of their own. They had some mutual misunderstanding and divided into different groups. They started moving to different places in search of food and shelter. From here on you can make up the stories.
-> There was a planet, called krishtak, in far galaxy. People there were all like humans and they had all the advance technologies. People there were very happy. They even knew about earth, a place where human life is possible. And they were on the verge of sending their people on earth to explore more about it. There was this space scientist Adam. He was the main researcher in this space work. His assistant and life partner was Eve :). They loved each other very much. One day Eve found that she was pregnant. And it was twin, one boy and girl. There were no limits to their happiness. All their desires were full-filled. There was nothing more they could have asked for. Finally the day came and they had two beautiful children. But no happiness lasts forever so was its fate. And there was war. Nations were attacking on each other with weapons which are far more dangerous then any nuclear weapon. This world was on the edge of its end.
Adam and Eve used to love their country so much that they weren’t ready to leave it at any cost, even if it implied them to leave their newly born kids on their fate alone. So after a quick and sentimental decision they decided to send their kid far away from these fights and hatred. Some place where no man had ever placed their feet on. Some place where their kids could be safe and take fresh air, drink cool water and eat some good food none of which would be contaminated by any chemicals. They had a small space ship designed for two people. And that was powerful enough to carry these kids across the galaxy.

After a long journey these kids landed on “our earth”. But that time krishtak was destroyed. And story goes on...

I wonder why we need to spend so much on our defences. I know a lot of people agree with this expenditure. It is something we have to do because of the negative energy spread all over the world. Imagine this world without any negative energy or say people concentrate all their strenght in constructing good technology to make life easier instead of building destructive power. Say in case of india, if we spend half of our defence expediture in agriculture, than there won't any more farmers dying. Quality of life would be richer in that case. IF..................

-> Third theory is that this world is not true. It’s all an illusion. We are puppets and someone or may be lots of people are playing games with us. You can call it some type of game or *matrix*. We all are trapped inside it and we don’t know about it. The moment we find any truth about this game, the game will be over. So keep playing and thinking.

Statutory Warning :- All the contents of the story are purely an imagination work by me and are copy righted. So, for making **a box-office hit movie**, please contact me asap :)…or I will sue u >:)

one wish ...

2006-02-16T02:01:00.000+05:30

Action movies have always been a center of attraction for a very particular section of ppl. There is this big group of fans who are in deep love with these kind of movies. I very proudly count myself in this group :).

Today I saw "The Chronicles Of Riddick" for the 3rd time. It has an unbelievably awesome action. Another reason for watching this movie could be that I just can't think of a good action movie which i havent seen for at least 3 to 4 times :). At times, I dream of possessing such supernatural power myself.. Doing that kinda awesome stuff really attracts my attention. And that's actually pretty kwel..

I wonder, what if one day GOD asks me to ask for one single wish. It could be anything [anybody?]. Then what would I wish for? There are lots of options in my mind. Following three are the major ones:

1. Say, I wish to be the most powerful, richest, most influential and the happiest man in this 'full-of-struggle' universe. That ways, I would have everything that anyone can dream of. If you're the smartest and the most intelligent person in this universe, that's really something. And being that powerful, I can do anything i wish. No one will dare to stop me. No challenges. But after sometime life would be so monotonous that their would be no fun. This is just too much to ask for. Guess, I will step down a bit.

2. Now let’s consider the wish to have some of the powers but not everything. I might not be the happiest and the richest person. I might have many problems to tackle. And such a case will require me to fight like a hero. I will have a life with proper proportions of happy and sad moments. I will live by some rules and will fight for them. Since I'll have some superpowers, that might fill me with some kinda proud. I will have unfair advantage over others. That's not fair by my rules. What if I turn against all the people and instead of helping them, I start torturing them. And most importantly, that ways I'll have something which is not mine, I haven’t earned it. It has been given to me by someone. So it can as well be taken back as it never really existed and then I will be nothing more than a normal human being. But by that time i might have gained some good friends or some bad enemies.

3. Say, I ask for strong will and determination power. I will fight for everything till the end. It doesn’t matter whether I win or loose. Only thing that matters is my willingness to fight for a noble cause or some appropriate target. Fight until I have strength to stand on my feet, strength to raise my voice for my loved ones and strength to blow my enemy with every breath exhaled out. And this bold part of my personality always inspires me to face any challenge. To fight with my full determination fills me up with strength. This might well be the reason that I love "Rocky" series. And new addition to this would be "Cinderella man" :). Isn't this getting too much? I should have been in some kinda armed forces. Really?? No!!

I don’t think so. To fight you don’t need a battle field. Everything I do, I should do it with full zeal. I might fail but then failures are as close a part of our lives as are victories... And I don't mind losing as far as I keep on learning from my mistakes and enjoy my struggle.

Finally I would say that I believe - "To have all the strong will and determination I need for struggle" is the best with that one could ask for. And I personally don’t want anything else. GOD might want to give that kinda option for asking one single wish to someone who's really needy. I am not. I still have that strength required for me to win at all stages in my life. No one is perfect.
So no wonder I also many problems. I face them with what i have. But I believe in improving and never giving up. I believe in myself and that is what many people do not do.. They think that they are nice people. Some day GOD will come to grant some wish to them. And That day will be the end of misery. Get out of this illusion. Don't wait for any miracle to happen and change your life. Do it yourself. "FAITH IN URSELF" is the keyword for that.

Spirit of Valentine Day..

2006-02-14T01:07:00.000+05:30

2maro, oops 2day is the Valentines day :). The day when ppl express their feelings (mostly jhoot moot ;) through some greetings, flowers and many more cute/romantic gifts. For some of them, it is the first time that they have gathered all their guts to put the friendship at stake and move a step further. I m not in love (probably?) but I believe that this day gives just another reason to celebrate with ur loved ones. Ppl wait for this day to propose. I wudnt ever wait for any particular day. The day I get a strong feeling for someone, a feeling of love, a feeling of being with her; the day I like, if not everything, most of the things about her, I wudnt wait, i just wudnt. And no one shud in the case. Just go ahead and find out wat she has to say. But to do this u dont have to reach her with lots of flowers and gifts and artificial, immaterialistic things. At times, I've seen ppl taking their feelings in a totally wrong sense and do things that they arnt supposed to do. They propose the girl they dont even know. They do it just because they think that it is a love at first sight [;))] when in reality they're stupid. They try reaching their love; they stare at him/her for hours. Crap!! Bullshit!! are some of the words. You really think that's love?? Probably infactuation may be a right word.. Ah! c'mon man.. Grow up.. Its probably jes a feeling of getting what you wish to..

Love needs a mutual understanding between a guy and a girl (if the orientation is straight ;). One-sided love is never successful. Love is about living and loving. And both of them have a right to live their lives peacefully. Your crush at someone isnt about destroying the other's life. If I ever like someone (I plan to find someone in recent future), then I wud first try to be a good friend. I ll try to know her and let her know me. We'll spend some time together, go out. I'll talk to her and listen her. I believe that for love to be successful u have to be truly opposite in many ways, but not all. Jes an example -if i m intelligent dat doesnt mean that she has to be a duffer (most of the girls are) :). I am not a perfectionist as far as the topic gals is concerned but i believe that in today's world, there are in general 2 kind of gals -

1) An emotional, sentimenal and really good (take it as gharelu) girl. And that senti, if in excess, becomes a disaster. U need to be practical in this tough world.

2) A really smart and practical girl. They really know how to get their tasks done. But excess again is unhealthy in here.. Gimme a break yaar.. u need to have some understanding and some sentiments.

Can't we have a combination of both the above categories in appropriate ratios?

oopphhhh .. Isn't the philosophy getting too much. I understand this isnt the right time to indulge in these sweet n sexy things (as thot by most) :)..Life is very long. Everyone will get lots of chances to njoy wid their respective soulmates :). After u get ur Miss/Mr love, u can celebrate everyday as a valentines day, hug day, kiss day and whatever else u wish to do ;) Everything has its own time.

Why not njoy wid ur family and friends for now? I've seen people crying over the issues that they haven't found their partners yet.. Crazy ppl.. Try to work hard and try make ur parents' dreams true. If not theirs, at least think about ur life. This is easier said than done.. Writing abt it is probably the easiest thing to do. But fighting for ur dreams is really tough. But this is life. And its not easy. Struggle for ur survival and njoy. A life full of struggles is always the sweetest..

Good luck to all the first timers ;) Have *fun* people..